I've been dating this guy for five months, and I love him. I think his feelings for me are stronger than mine are for him, though. Long before I even met him, I fell for a different guy. My boyfriend isn't really the type of guy I'd go for. He's bigger, not quite up to my intellectual standards, not necessarily the most attractive guy, not much for deep conversation, things like that. This other guy that I fell for long ago is everything I've ever wanted in a guy, save for one thing... He lives in Michigan; I met him on Myspace (I live in Illinois). He and I lost touch right around the time I got together with my current boyfriend. I haven't thought much about him until recently. My feelings for him are as strong as ever if not stronger. I feel guilty for having these feelings while I'm with my boyfriend. At the same time, my heart aches because all I want is to be with this other guy, even though I know that's not even possible because of the distance.
I feel torn in two. I don't want to hurt my boyfriend, but I don't want to hurt myself, either.
Woot, I will certaliny put this to good use!
myy bf went swimming w/his dads bosses daughter they talked and now.......i think im upset about it bc he might like her better than me!
i am upset today..so very upset..for no reason i guess..might be because i have no one to talk out my feelings with..in fact my very own friends makes me feel much more lonely!
he's getting away, and everyone is blaming me.
I'm upset because L died in Death Note. I'm upset because I pissed my girlfriend and her bestfriend off. I made her bestfriend feel guilty because of something I did. I'm upset because my bestfriend has been pissing me off lately. I'm upset because my mom can't even afford to put food on the table for my nephew and I and I didn't want to pawn my laptop for money for food. I'm upset because I'm a disappointment. I'm upset because I don't want to die but I want a release from the pain of living and I can't find that release. I'm upset because I'm poor and I'm a spoiled brat. I'm upset because all of my problems are first world problems when other people are actually facing bigger problems than I am. I'm upset because my sister is in jail for accidental murder and she might not ever come home. I'm upset because my puppy ate a lot of human food and is now sick. I'm upset because each day I am forced to do something I don't want to do. I'm upset because I feel I like I'll never truly be happy again. I'm just tired. Tired of all of this nonsense.
Ok, this may sound really stupid but I just want to get it out there. I had a sudden realization that I've looked so ugly from the start of the year.
My mom gave me An attitude then accused me of giving one back. I wonder where I learnt that's mom :(
how can he meen so much to me and i meen so little to him ? :(
I really miss him and i want to see him but we couldn't go out today and that sucks!!!