i'm beginning to think what's the point? i'm dead on the inside why not out too? i'm sick and tired of taking knifes, razors whatever i can to the skin just to feel again, but even that's not working, you're probably wondering like what? what's wrong with her? well, i'm going through high school and i bet some of you know how that feels but it's more than high school, the guy i like is my best friend he knows the story behind every scar, the story behind every tear, and he's been through it too, but it's not one of those i don't know how to tell him stories, it's a he has a girlfriend who's cheated on him with his own brother and countless amount of friends kind of ones. Then there's my best friend in the whole world, again also has scares attempted suicide whatever, and she keeps doing it, and i'm the one who picks her up when she falls, she trys with me but her's are a little bit more less worse than me, my other guy best friend, we constantly argue and it's getting pathetic, he's aggressive, i mean i have bruises all over my body thanks to him. My parents, this is where it gets more touchy-feely, they're split and they are both have partners and i hate them both, my dads girlfriend makes me sleep on the floor, and my mums partner and her have sex while i'm next door and expect me not to hear it , when it's about 10pm and cmon i'm a teenager i'm still awake hours past midnight. Another thing about my dad, he held his fist up to my mother, and that's why she left, he's also an alcoholic with a mum that's adopted but also dead? so hey what have i got to live for? A life full of death, lies and disappointments?